Another hard night...

To say we feel under attack tonight is an understatement! I just ran downstairs to write this blog because we are so desperate for prayers. I have had a rough day, Chris is beyond exhausted in every way, and Eliana is feeling ALL of this. Lord, have mercy! I feel so much guilt right now. I feel like such a failure as a mom and as a wife. She has been screaming bloody murder for over 2 hours. I have rocked her...I have sung every song I know...we have prayed over her...Chris is now trying to calm her little body down. She is beside herself. I know she's exhausted. I know she's tired of being passed around. I know she doesn't understand why I'm in bed and sick. Lord, how much longer?? I hate watching her hurt. She throws herself on the floor in hysterics and really seems like she's trying to hurt herself. I love her so much. Chris loves her so much. She is hurting! Please pray. Please pray for Chris. Please pray for me and my body. I just can't take much more.

Love y'all,
Lindsey

Keep praying...

The last few weeks have been so difficult in so many ways. The pain has grown more intense (especially at night)...my heart has been fluttering pretty much all day long. I'm not going to lie; it has been pretty scary. Most nights I end up in tears begging God for mercy. Two nights ago, I had a pretty terrible episode. Chris was across the street with our neighbors...and I called him to come home. I thought for sure I was headed to the ER. Every part of me was tingling...my skin was crawling and the pain was so crazy! Chris asked our neighbors to come pray over me. It was such a sweet time...and after the time of prayer my body began to settle down. Why do I doubt God? I know that He is my Healer. I think I am just so overwhelmed. I am tired of having to tell Eliana goodbye every morning. I am tired of laying in bed. I am tired of my feet & legs hurting so much that I don't want to walk. But, I am really trying to hang on and trust that He is in control. Please keep praying for me. Pray for Chris...he has SO MUCH on his shoulders right now. Pray for provision for all of our medical bills!! Pray that the Lord would give me perspective in this season.

Love,
Lindsey

Psalm 142

You Are My Refuge

With my voice I cry out to the Lord;
with my voice I plead for mercy to the Lord.
I pour out my complaint before him;
I tell my trouble before him.

When my spirit faints within me,
you know my way!
In the path where I walk
they have hidden a trap for me.
Look to the right and see:
there is none who takes notice of me;
no refuge remains to me;
no one cares for my soul.

I cry to you, O Lord;
I say, “You are my refuge,
my portion in the land of the living.”
Attend to my cry,
for I am brought very low!
Deliver me from my persecutors,
for they are too strong for me!
Bring me out of prison,
that I may give thanks to your name!
The righteous will surround me,
for you will deal bountifully with me.

Project Lyme-Aid

Check out my new blog dedicated to blogging about my journey with Lyme disease!! I will be selling some of my things to raise money for some of my medical expenses....thanks so much for praying!!

Love y'all,
Lindsey

www.projectlymeaid.blogspot.com

2nd day of school and the NEW backpack!

....oh, and she went to the principal's office for hitting (the sweet principal said a lot of 3 year olds were in the office today)! Hopefully, I won't be getting a phone call every Tuesday and Thursday. :-)

Love,
Lindsey

1st day of Mustard Seed!!

We are so proud of Eliana...she made it through her first day of preschool! She only goes for a few hours on Tuesday and Thursday, but it still was a big deal for us! Her teacher said she was amazing....which was surprising because the morning didn't start out too great. She did not like carrying a backpack and had fallen out of bed at 4:00 am and hadn't gone back to sleep. So, 5 hours of sleep on her first day of school and she still did great....way to go sweet girl. We love you and are so proud of you!!

Love,
Lindsey

The Terrible, Horrible, No Good, Very Bad Day(s)!

That pretty much sums up every single day over the last few weeks! Don't get me wrong, I am thankful for every day that I am alive....but each day has been one hard thing after the other. One of the awful parts of Lyme disease is that it attacks different parts of your body at any given time. So, one day I feel like my feet have been hit with a baseball bat....and then one day I can't move my neck because of the pain. The last week has been some of the most intense nausea/throwing up that I have ever experienced in my life....not sure if it's the TONS of meds or if it is a Herx reaction. That does NOT make for a fun day! I have been desperately trying to be positive....but it is so hard. I have tried reading....but my mind can't focus on anything other than the pain and nausea. We have been so blessed by people loving us and keeping Eliana....but I miss her SO MUCH! It is so hard staying in bed knowing that she isn't with me. Please keep praying for healing!! I know that I still have a pretty long road ahead.....

Love ya'll,
Lindsey

Back to School 10% off Promo Code!!

I love coupon codes…and am so excited about this one!! From now until September 7, 2010, you can enter the promo code SCHOOLTEN at the Show Hope store site and get 10% off your order!! So, your kids (and you) can look super cool going back to school while supporting an amazing ministry and cause. Help us spread the word….feel free to post it on your facebook, twitter, and blogs. Don’t forget to send us your pics sporting your Show Hope gear!! I hope y’all have an incredible beginning of the new school year!

Blessings,

Lindsey

Best babysitter in the world!

I can't even tell y'all how blessed I feel by all of the love and prayers!! Eliana has been SO TAKEN care of....which makes me smile. One of her favorite people in the world is Tori....she plays with her, swims with her, and loves on her. It has been so hard staying in bed and saying goodbye to Eliana every morning....but it has been so good knowing that she is having a BLAST!! Thank you sweet Tori (and Angie)! Thank you Sandra! Thank you Amy! Thank you Dianne! Thank you for the meals Show Hope girls and Ellen! IT MEANS SO MUCH TO ME!!

Love you all,
Lindsey

Happy Birthday GG!!

We love you so much GG!! You are an amazing momma and grandmomma!! Thanks so much for all of the many ways your encourage each of us. We always know that you have our backs. Thank you for the hours that you spend in prayer for each of us. You are a Godly example....and so much fun!! Eliana loves her GG so much!! We just wish that you lived a lot closer to us. We can't wait for our trip in September....it will be a blast. I hope you feel so loved today. You deserve every bit of it!!

Love,
Chris, Lindsey & Eliana

Choosing to SEE

Over the next week, two dollars from each Family Christian Stores sale of Mary Beth Chapman’s book, Choosing To SEE, will benefit Show Hope! These funds will go toward operating expenses for Maria’s Big House of Hope. Both online and in-store purchases made by next Tuesday, August 17, 2010 will apply.

I am so thankful for the Chapman family....and I know this book is going to bring hope to so many people that desperately need it (me included). Let me know what you think once you read it....love you all.

Lindsey

P.S. HELP ME SPREAD THE WORD!!