
I haven't written a lot lately for a lot of different reasons. We have been traveling a lot....and then have had company for the last week. Honestly, y'all are probably sick of hearing me say this.....but I have been really struggling. There are probably many reasons why.....but I am so tired of it. I am suffering with a fatigue problem, which is right now attacking me in full effect!! Please pray for my health. I am sleeping a lot right now (and when I am not sleeping....I am chasing sweet Eliana all over the place). In the loneliness and fatigue, I often forget how many things I have to be grateful for.
Today we got a package from the U.S. Department of Homeland Security. It was all of the original documents from Eliana's adoption file. I have just spent the last hour reading each word on each page....and can't stop crying. I am so grateful for this child God has given to us. There is a new picture I have never seen of her when she was tiny. Oh, I love her face. I am grateful that her biological mother selflessly gave her to us. Honestly, I forget that I am not her biological mom (that might sound weird).....but she feels like she has ALWAYS been a part of Chris and me. After I read through everything.....I started looking at pictures (lots of crying again). Thank you Lord for choosing us for her. I can't imagine my life without her.
Even though the fatigue is great.....the Lord has given me just what I have needed for Eliana and Chris. I wake up begging God for enough energy to be a good wife and mom. And every single day, the Lord gives me the strength. I love laughing with Eliana. I love tickling her. I love running along side of her through the house. I love chasing her. I love kissing her. I love giving her tons of hugs. I love telling her "I love you" a thousand times a day. I love brushing Dora's hair with her. I love watching Handy Manny with her. I love playing outside with her. I love jumping on the trampoline with her. I love putting her hair in pigtails (even though her Tia Leah says it makes her sassy). I love watching her love her daddy. I love watching her hug any kind of animal. I love teaching her words. I love reading to her. I love praying with her. I am so thankful for our sweet girl.
I am so grateful.
Love you all,
Lindsey