Thursday, April 9, 2009

We will NEVER stop loving and praying for Xio!!

This is probably one of the hardest posts that I have written in a long time. Many of you that have followed us from the beginning have prayed for precious Xiomara!! For those that don't know her story, click HERE. The Lord brought her in our lives when we least expected it....without her, we would never have found our precious Eliana. A lot has gone on with her case in the last year and a half.....and most of it we were told not to voice on our blog. The last few days have been pretty tough for Chris and me. We have cried and prayed and cried some more. We found our that precious Xiomara is being adopted by a Guatemalan couple!! PLEASE HEAR ME, we are BEYOND THRILLED that she is being adopted.....that she will have a forever family. The selfish part of me is just grieving that she will not be in our family. We were also told that she was NOT adoptable....so we are having to sort through feelings of hurt there too. The bottom line is that we LOVE this girl....we will NEVER stop praying for her. Please join us in praying for her new family. Pray for our hearts.....I am having to let go of my dream of Eliana and Xiomara being sisters. If you would like to hear how you can pray more specifically or want to hear more of the story, just e-mail me privately. I cannot even begin to tell all of you how much you mean to me. Thank you for loving this little girl.

We love you Xio....
Lindsey (and Chris)

34 comments:

Rachel said...

I will be praying for your family and for Xio.

Mary Ann said...

Lindsey! I can not believe how big she has gotten! Since I have personally meet her and held her she holds a little piece of my hear too! I think I e-mailed you the pictures I took of her when I was there in July 2007.

What an angel! I still pray those kiddies that were left behind!

Laurie said...

OMG I have tears in my eyes! I am so happy she is going to have a forever home! The Lord has another sister planned for Eliana! I'll pray the Lord will comfort you and Chris as you process this.

Leah and Maya said...

I am so sorry you have lost her, but am glad at lest she will have a family who loves her, rahter then just living in an orphange. Take Care!

Katie said...

Wow. I'm not sure what to say. I'm so sorry for you guys. I'm excited a Guate family is getting such a sweet girl but I can't imagine what that feels like for you guys. Praying for you.

Vanessa said...

My prayers are with you guys!

Sarah said...

Praying for your sweet Xio! I am so happy that she will grow up being loved in a family... wish it had been with you though too! Big hugs to you while you sort through all the feelings.

Suzanne and Jayme said...

There seems to be so much good and bad that came about through this process. I pray that Xiomara lives a full, happy life. I pray that your hearts are healed from lossing her. Thank you so much for sharing about Xiomara.

Holli said...

praying for Xio, her new family in Guatemala and her family that will love her forever......

Jenny and Matt said...

Wheelers,
What a bunch of confusing emotions you must have right now. I am so glad that Xio has found a forever family and also that, no doubt, you will love and pray for that little one forever.
Hold strong in faith

Kay Daniels said...

My heart rejoices with you that she has a forever family....and, at the same time, my heart breaks with you that it isn't yours.

I love you, Mom

The Heinrichs said...

I am praying for you all. This is so unfair...I am so sad...I'm angry and I am hurting for you...but I pray she has a life of happiness with her new forever family...we will chat soon!
Love you all!

Amy said...

I am so sorry.. I can't imagine how hard this is!

mica said...

I am praying for God's healing on your families heart and can't wait to see what greatness the Lord does have in store for your family that is going to replace or smoothe this pain.
Love,
Mica

Jenn said...

We will be praying for you guys, for Xio and for her new family!

I think a lot about Eva (our first referral that we lost), and I can't help but feel like maybe God brought her into our lives for no other reason than for her to have someone who will love her and pray for her for the rest of her life, even if we don't get to be there to see her grow up.

I am glad that Xio has a forever family and I'll be praying that God comforts you guys through all of this!

begutierrez said...

I am praying for you.

nikki said...

Praying for Xio since I first read her story on your blog. Happy to hear that she found a family. I can only imagine the loss you must feel. Prayers for you as your heart heals.

Christy said...

Praying for you friends!

LaLa said...

Oh, I am so sorry..but after worrying about what other plans her "mother" seemed to have I am relieved that she will be with a loving family. I am so sorry it isn't going to be yours!

*Overflowing* said...

I have prayed for sweet Xio since the beginning and I will continue to do so! Praise the Lord that she indeed will have a forever family. I am sorry for your grieving hearts..I can only imagine your pain (takes me back to when we almost lost our Cana).

Praying, praying, praying and remember, our Lord turns our sorrow into rejoicing!

suzanne said...

HOLY COW! I cannot believe that sweet lil angel. She finally grew into her eyes! i will be praying for your sweet hearts. i am still asking around for work that can be done from your house. I will keep my ears open! love you guys

ManyBlessings said...

((Lindsey and Chris))
I have thought about this a lot lately and wondered how things ever turned out. I'm so sorry. I know that it's the letting go of the dream that is the hardest. I think it's so easy to move these children into our hearts isn't it. :( I'll be praying for you guys. Happy for Xio, but understanding your grief.
dawn

Miss Wanderlust said...

Have a blessed Easter!

Jess said...

Oh Lindsey, I am so so sorry. I know this must break your heart. Xio is so blessed to have you two to love her and pray for her throughout her life. I am praying for you as you mourn the loss of the possibility of her as a daughter and sister.

Bobbi said...

Oh, how I had hoped that one day your dream would come true. I hope that she will always somehow know of your love. I hope she will be loved and cared for in her new home. She is such a beautie.

We too had a little girl that we dreamed of when we started this process. She did not come to us for many reasons, and I do not know what happened with her case, but I think of her often, and she is forever in my heart. I also believe that she lead us to Reese as we ended up with our agency because of her.

Praying for your peace and healing of your heart.

Megan said...

Praying for you, Xio, and the adoptive family! Sending you hugs...

Pineapple Princess said...

It makes me so sad that Xio won't be coming home to you. I had been praying this whole time that it might be the Lord's will. We both know God knows more than our hearts can fathom. I'm still sad with you.

Rhonda said...

OMGosh, I am so very very sorry which doesn't even seem to begin to tell you how sad we are feeling for you and your family.

I am so glad she is going to have a forever home but very sad it will not be with your family. Please know we will definitely will be praying for your family.

K Leclercq said...

I'm so sorry, Lindsey. I can't imagine letting go of that dream while at the same time being so happy that she now has a family who loves her and will love her forever. Xio is a very special and lucky little girl to forever be loved by so many - especially by you and Chris.

Mamita J said...

Chris and Lindsey,

Praying for you as you work through the grief and hurt, as well as the joy. May God give you peace and bless you for your faithfulness and love.

Julie

Lana K. W. Austin said...

I am so sorry that you have had to go through this arduous journey. A similar thing happened to my parents with the child they wanted to adopt before they adopted me and my brother. The cool thing is that my parents stayed in touch with that original little girl, Cindy, and now consider themselves to have THREE children. She is my sister even though she never lived with us. :)
Perhaps it can be that way for you guys, too. If not, I pray that God grants you the peace that passes understanding as you acclimate to this simultaneously joyful & horrific time. How loving of you to still care about this little girl even while you have Eliana. BOTH these little girls are blessed to have you guys LOVE THEM and PRAY FOR THEM!!!
Many blessings to you,
Lana Austin (Amelia & Scott's friend)

Guatmama said...

Wow, she has grown. I have followed from the beginning and will continue to pray for Xio and your family with Eliana!

Stephanie said...

i am so sorry.... God knows. We can't understand these things most of the time. It hurts, and it hurts deeply. I pray God will comfort you both during this time of greiving this 'loss'. and i pray for that beautiful little girl... that she will be loved for greatly!
hang in there! Rest in Him.
Stephanie

Kirk, Beth and Rachel Ann said...

lindsey, so, so sorry for this loss & pain. praying for the peace that passes unnderstanding.
beth & rachel ann