Tuesday, November 2, 2010

Keep praying...

The last few weeks have been so difficult in so many ways. The pain has grown more intense (especially at night)...my heart has been fluttering pretty much all day long. I'm not going to lie; it has been pretty scary. Most nights I end up in tears begging God for mercy. Two nights ago, I had a pretty terrible episode. Chris was across the street with our neighbors...and I called him to come home. I thought for sure I was headed to the ER. Every part of me was tingling...my skin was crawling and the pain was so crazy! Chris asked our neighbors to come pray over me. It was such a sweet time...and after the time of prayer my body began to settle down. Why do I doubt God? I know that He is my Healer. I think I am just so overwhelmed. I am tired of having to tell Eliana goodbye every morning. I am tired of laying in bed. I am tired of my feet & legs hurting so much that I don't want to walk. But, I am really trying to hang on and trust that He is in control. Please keep praying for me. Pray for Chris...he has SO MUCH on his shoulders right now. Pray for provision for all of our medical bills!! Pray that the Lord would give me perspective in this season.


Psalm 142

You Are My Refuge

With my voice I cry out to the Lord;
with my voice I plead for mercy to the Lord.
I pour out my complaint before him;
I tell my trouble before him.

When my spirit faints within me,
you know my way!
In the path where I walk
they have hidden a trap for me.
Look to the right and see:
there is none who takes notice of me;
no refuge remains to me;
no one cares for my soul.

I cry to you, O Lord;
I say, “You are my refuge,
my portion in the land of the living.”
Attend to my cry,
for I am brought very low!
Deliver me from my persecutors,
for they are too strong for me!
Bring me out of prison,
that I may give thanks to your name!
The righteous will surround me,
for you will deal bountifully with me.


anne said...

Praying for you right now!!

Danielle said...


Listen to this song. It has a great message! Praying!

Bekah said...

I'm so sorry. Continuing to pray.

Leah Maya Benjamin said...

I'm so sorry, I was hoping you were feeling better. Is the more intenese pain from the medicine working? I am thinking of you and hoping that somehow it all starts to improve and you can have your life back with your family.

Tonya Boster said...

So sorry to hear about your pain and suffering. Praying right now in KY.

Tonya Boster said...

When you feel like it, email me at blessedbyjewelry@kvnet.org. I would like to help you by doing a jewelry fundraiser with Premier Designs jewelry if you are interested. Hang in there.

Alice said...

your story has touched me.... i'm not really sure how i came across your blog but you are an amazing women. I am praying for you. God will use you in mighty ways through this experience. You have such an amazing husband!!!

Unknown said...

Ohh.. May God Bless You

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