Saturday, September 27, 2008

ANGRY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I am so mad right now.....I just cried the whole way back from McDonald's pushing Eliana in her stroller. People were staring at me and I didn't care. My purse was stolen at McDonald's.......STOLEN!!! I was so careful.....it really is unexplainable. I had set aside money to have in Guatemala City....and it is ALL GONE!! WHY???!! I lost my debit and credit card.....my i.d.....but the thing that makes me most sad is my camera. There were a lot of pictures that I was not able to load onto my computer (the reason why I never post pics). I AM SO MAD!!! If they needed money, just ask me. Don't take my memories. I know it is only possessions, so you don't have to remind me. It is just the fact that I am so tired of not being able to trust people. I obviously needed a good cry because I can't stop.

Love you all,
Lindsey

P.S. Chris comes tomorrow!!! That makes me cry a little bit less.

42 comments:

Rachel said...

I'm so sorry that you had to experience this Linds...

No words except sorry...

Can't wait for you to make it home!

Michael and Michelle said...

You can be angry!!!!! I would be angry too! That just stinks!! I am sad that happened to you.

Michelle

Guatmama said...

Oh no - not fair. Here I was just knowing this was a happy post. Praying that God restores those photos somehow.

LouLou said...

Oh hun,
I know it has to suck being there for so long without Chris and then having this happen. I PROMISE that once is there with you, and you guys are a forever family things will be PERFECT. Cry all you need to.....you deserve it. Then get yourself together, and know that YOU ARE COMING HOME!!!!!!!! I am sending you big hugs and kisses.

love you.

Erin said...

Crying with you, sweet sister. It's just wrong. Praying for peace for you in these last few days. May God strengthen you as you prepare to head home, where you can eat at McDonald's without fear. ;)

I love you.

Trish said...

Oh my Lord!! The Devil sure is hard at work here, Lindsay. I am so angry at the levels to which he has stooped to trip you up and steal your joy along your entire journey. One simply has to read your COMPLETE story to realize how he has attacked you and Chris. But.....and you knew there was a 'but' coming...:O)...you have risen above every adversity and remembered who was in charge and who shall be glorified. Have a good, long, UGLY cry, the kind with snots coming outta ya nose and where you can't breathe properly...and then tell him to get behind ya coz you're coming thru.

Guate4Jack said...

ugh! I'm so sorry Lindsey! That totally sucks. I read your blog often but don't post too often. Just wanted to let you know I'm reading! Keep your chin up and cry away. It is totally fine to be angry and upset. I'm glad you and sweet baby are ok though.

Becky and Jack

Andrea said...

Crying washes things and makes them new again. So, cry every tear you want, my dear! You need a good cry, so go ahead!

I am so sorry. It sucks, there's nothing else to say. Hang in there-Chris will be there tomorrow!

ManyBlessings said...

Oh darn it Lindsay!!! I am so mad FOR you!!! UGH! UGH! UGH! :(
dawn

LundFamilyAdoption said...

We ae so sorry to hear that your purse was stolen. But we can nto wait for you guys to get home! We will pray that you will have a safe trip home on Tuesday and we can not wait to see of pictures of Eliana in her new home! Taylor

Mamita J said...

I'm so sorry, Lindsey. That just stinks.

It's just so sad.

Love,
Julie

suzanne mayernick said...

satan! satan! satan! you have won! YOUR GOING HOME! of course, he's gonna be knocking at your door, trying to steal your joy!! there is light at the end of the tunnel dear one...NASHVILLE!!!!!! keep your head up. he is gonna be at every corner until you leave there! tell him "satan get behind me!!" at least you know your on the right road. warfare is everywhere! you just cry, and curse at him a lil bit too...he deserves it!! i"ll do it from here on your behalf! that what friends are for! hahahahahahaha!! i love you sweet sister!

Amy Clemons said...

I am ANGRY too. How much can one person endure? God please protect Lindsey and Eliana and bring them home soon. Please help these poor indecent people to be taught the difference between right and wrong. Please forgive them if they do not know what they do. God, please continue to send good people like Chris and Lindsey into a country that does not teach its people to be thankful for those who take care of their responsibilities and especially their precious children when they cannot or chose not to do so.

Lindsey I am so sorry that this happened to you. Please know that we are praying you home. God will bring you through this.

Amanda said...

so so sorry this happened to you! especially since you've been riding the high of the good news of coming home!! i'm so glad you girls are ok.

Lisa Johnson said...

Lindsey I am so sorry this happened to you. I am angry for you right now! I pray God brings you peace tonight while you sleep and wait for Chris to arrive tomorrow. I can't wait until you are able to get home and be safe with family and friends. I know people say that bad things can happen anywhere, but goodness, this is a little much for anyone to handle while in another country. Please be safe and know that so many of us are praying for you!!

Barbie said...

Oh Lindsey I am so sorry. I will be praying that maybe it will be found... at least the camera.

Mary Ann said...

I am sooo sorry! I know how much time that will take you to replace everything! But the worst is the pictures! That is enough to make you sick. I will pray for your camera to be recovered! Anything is possible through Christ! And Prayers and petition!

Chris will make it all better tomorrow when he comes! WHat a great day that will be a family united forever!

Marianne said...

So sorry......UGH! One more thing to worry about BUT you are coming home and this part of the journey will be behind you. Don't let one horrible incident ruin what you expereinced. Sadly this type of behavior is all over whether you are travleing or not. Deep breath, wait for Chris and be a family. (Cry alot though, it does stink)

Jess said...

Oh Lindsey that stinks!!! It is horrible that there is so much poverty in Guatemala that the crime is so high. I know it hurts to lose memories like that and it hurts when you are so trusting and open, willing to give people anything they need.

I am so sorry. I am hurting for you.

The McBrides said...

Remember...."The LORD, Mighty in Battle!" & Cry on!
Love you...

Lee Anne and John said...

Oh Lindsey some people just really suck! I am so sorry that happened to you. I would be cryin too. I am so happy though that Chris will be there tomorrow. I am sure that a hug from him will make everything better.
Lee Anne

demp5 said...

so, so, sorry. I am crying with you over the loss of pictures :(

The gFamily said...

Oh Lindsey, I am so sorry! I am angry with you! Chris will be there so soon and then you will be home!! Praying for your safety!!

Kim & Dave said...

That is pretty rotten!!! I think you have every right to cry & be angry!!

:hugs: & prayers!!!

Sarah said...

I am so sorry and will pray for the person who was so desperate that they thought they needed to steal from another person for what they got in return... it is only a short fix to an even bigger problem.

I am so sorry about your pictures... that is the worst...

Reba said...

Oh, I am so very sorry. I am sending lots of hugs your way. You have every right to be angry and crying is sometimes just a necessary part of healing. You have been gone so long and already dealt with so much (including "soloing" as a parent which is hard work), then this.
:( Soon, very soon, you WILL be home and hopefully will feel safe again.
Reba

Hannah said...

I am so sorry! That is awful, the camera would be the big thing with me. I just feel sick for you. I will pray that the camera makes it's way back to you.

You are coming home!!! Yea!! Praise the Lord!!

christy said...

how frustrating!

i am so thankful you get to bring your precious daughter home soon.

::hugs::

Mindy said...

Lindsey, this is Mindy (Galbreath) Worthington, your friend from FFI. Know you are being lifted up in prayer from all across this nation! I'm SO SORRY that happened to you, but I'm so glad you and Eliana are safe. Praising God for your sweet Eliana and for Chris' soon arrival to hold, protect, and comfort you. Hang in there girlfriend!

sarah said...

That's so terrible. You have every right to be mad!! I know that the terrible person who stole from you, has some serious BAD karma coming their way...

Anna said...

SO sorry Lindsey and really praying for you right now!!!

Hang in there...so awful for you!!

Anna

ashley said...

Oh Lindsey! I cried for you when I read your blog! All I have of my baby girl is pics and they mean so much to me.
Father-I just pray that you would place a hedge of protection around this Wheeler family. I pray that you would bind up the enemy and keep them safe from any harm. Please restore what was taken and pour out your blessings on them!
I pray this in the name of Jesus who is mighty in battle and cares so much for those little ones-Amen

dockennyh@aol.com said...

Just a stranger from Tennessee who has been following your saga with love and prayers.....I am a mother to 6 now. However, number 5 was our first adoption and we moved the whole family to Antigua from the beginning to completion of our adoption. On a very bad day in the market, my 3 year old twins were being "3," I was wearing the baby, and I was also wearing a fanny pack with all of my money and all of our passports in it. You guessed it...when I squatted down to give the twins the "come to Jesus" talk that most 3 year olds need on a daily basis, I was robbed. Everything taken! We were less than a month from finally bringing our baby home to the US and we almost had to stay behind due to no passports or visas (which had just been renewed...like I said, we were there for the long hall). I had one credit card, 5 kids and myself to feed, and a husband who was in the States. So, I went back to my house, got the only credit card I had left, went to an atm, and procede to have my card eaten by said machine with a message in Spanish saying that it would be sent somewhere in Guatemala City on Monday. I cried and I cried. Praise God for the AMG missionary friends that took care of us. Not only was I broke, but getting 5 new passports was unbelievably expensive and required case. Then 1 month later after our adoption completed, I left the embassy with my family making sure all of the passports were locked in the hotel safe and proceded to none other than McDonald's in Guatemala City. I had taken $600 cash to the embassy to pay for extra signatures and was shown mercy for having been in Guatemala for so long. Unfortunately, I forgot to put the money in the safe and I was robbed from the stroller with my hand next to my wallet. Everyone saw it because they were staring....yet noone spoke up or defended this mother of 5 kids age 8 and under. That time, I did not cry. I got angry! I was feeling sad before that moment because I was leaving a country and people that I loved. At that very moment....I said "Thank you God for taking us home where at least I don't have to be on guard every minute." God is gracious and will give you back every last penny and give you more memories than that camera could ever hold. Congratulations on making it! All you need to make it home with at this point is that precious girl, you and Chris, and a Heavenly Father who has everything in His control!

In Christ,
April Hayman

The Heinrichs said...

This STINKS...but Chris will be here today and not only do you see the light at the end of the tunnel but you are almost to the end of it!!!

Miss you!

The Albertsons said...

Oh I'm so, so sorry. I can totally relate. I worked in Guatemala and was mugged one day, and I was just so confused... crying out to God. Why would this happen? Why???? I, too, had everything stolen. We have one "weapon" and that is prayer. We can pray for our enemies and pray for God's justice and mercy.
I've loved following your story and I'm so, so glad that you get to come home soon!
hang in there... and go ahead and be angry... it's okay.
with Christ's love...
becca albertson

Bobbi said...

OH, Lindsey, so sad. THat is just awful.

I think this is all catching up with you. Sometimes it is one thing that just breaks us.

Chris coming will make it better--not all better, but better.

Hugs

Margo said...

Hey Lindsey, I work with your mom and have twins Caleb and Grace, adopted from Guat on Thanksgiving Day 2005...they are 3 and BUSY!!!! Your mom has kept me informed about your adoption and am so happy that you will be home at this time next week...can you believe you will be home with your baby girl???!!! I hope our babies get to meet when you are in LR! The embassy visit is a TRIP - hot and LONG but God showed up there too - your mom will tell you our embassy story. Sorry about the purse and camera...but so happy for the week you have ahead of you. Prov 13:12 was the verse that hit my heart hard the morning we got the first faxed pics of the twins and signed the referrals...read it this week - God is for the orphans in Guat and for us, too! Much love and big smiles for you! love margo turner
ps bought a tshirt and guat necklace from your friends on your site :-)too cool! PSS get a christmas stocking for Eliana from the market...we treasure ours!

Laura said...

Lindsay--
I've been following your blog for a while now always thinking . . should I comment now?--now? . . . Chris and I were both ALPHAS!! :) at FFI . . . So excited for the amazing parents that Eliana has!!!
And as I'm reading these comments . . . and sympathizing with you because I was mugged when I lived in Bolivia in 2004 and OHHHH you should be angry!! . . . I see that someone named Margo wrote a comment . . . and lo and behold I realized, she was one of my profs in college :) ( you should see her in LR--she's amazing!!!)
SO excited that you and Chris will/are finally back together . . . my husband and I have been apart since May (he's Air Force) and it's been such a joy to be able to pray for you guys and understand just a bit what that separation is like!!!
Laura (Rushing) Breau

bellagirl26 said...

Hang in there kiddo, its just stuff. You maybe needed a good long cry, heck this way, maybe you won't have the near total break down I had when we were all flying home as a family. I was fine with the USE and everything, but being on that plane, wow, its over, so over and so sweet, I cried and cried and cried some more! Kisses and big hugs to you, your honey is on his way to pick up the pieces. Soon you're new fabulous life will begin. God bless~
Ana's Mom
xoxo

Robyn said...

Lindsey, I am so sorry. Sending you lots of hugs and prayers!!

Robyn

Lisa said...

Oh, Lindsey, that really stinks. I am so sorry.
Lisa

Debbie said...

I am so sorry this happened!!! I don't know what else to say.

Debbie